i'm so bad....

Hi yoz...so long never write le...haiz...now-a-days dunno what gotten in to me....lots of secret in my mind,soul and heart...can't even share it...haiz...not even here....i previouse time stead with ppl who i dun really like just to forget him....coz i know he dosen't love me at all....but when i got the feeling from daryl,then he brock up with me...then cry like hell lorz...so in the end i didn't get to forget him fully~.....so in the end...he's still part of my heart....haiz...

many things has happened....

Many things ha happened in my year in Northlans Sec....From love to Friendship....haiz...dunno where to starts....well i'll make it real short onthings that happened day in and day out....

After i break up with hx(go to www.mylovelifeblog.blogspot.com to find out),i met another guy name Daryl....he's a 18 year old guy...(so what if he's 5 year older? i dun mind~) and i have his pic just recenly....so i steaded with him...we went to watch movie and it's so romantic~ he pay for my ticket you noe? But in the end...what he tell me? "Let's break becoz your parent dun not agree with you steading"all excues....that made me so sad.....and i still love him....
ok now for the friend part...it's kindda long you noe~...so bear with muie~

One day Hwei ping suddenly ask me if i wan to stead with Winston(his bf).And i say no,then she suddenly said about his bf this and that then ask me "steady marz"...so i tot she say his bf nice anot so i say" steady arz"...then she suddenly said that she now go SMS his bf to break and then ask me to stead with him.So i got a shock and say i dun wan...then she suddenly sound so angry like that and start saying "i tot you just now say you wan,then now say dun wan"and so we argue a while then she sounds angry marz...i'm a person who is scard of ppl getting angry one marz so i agreed...but i did say if she with him i more happy...but she just get angryer.....
Then when i went back to school,everyone noes about this liao and everone started to hate me except Verna...Verna i suce a nice person~...she belive in me even thought everyone said that it's my fault...then everone started to hate me even Wee Teng who means alot to me and Even Andy my BaoBei 'gan di' so i cute my self again and again to proof that i'm not the one to blame... Coz Hwei Ping told everyone stories and say untill like as if i'm stoling his bf like that and so everone hate me....i cut myself so deep than my blood keep on coming out non-stop....and it hurts....but...my heart hurt more than the cut...haiz....but when the truft came out,everyone belive me and started to say sorry..i felt happy not becoz they say sorry to me but becoz then became my friend again~....i really treature then alot....i rea lly like then as my friends and god sister...but becoz of the incident Wei Ni let go out me so i was not longer her 'gan mei' but i really do hope that i will become her 'gan mei' again~....

Well that's all that i have to add in the blog.....hope it's not taht long that you all are lasy to read~...oh~!!and one more thing,different coloure reflace my mood...