Being free....

Days past...i had never knew being singal whould have so much fun....Today no phone call are made....no ppl follwing mii around in games....no ppl trying to show off their best to protect mii....all alone fighting...making frenz....tok with boys in game...no jelousy can be found any where.....so happy...so relaxing....wonder how long would this be continew....well anyway....
I think the rest of the thing that i would say...is better if Wee Teng dun continew reading this....Coz i'm gonna say about my mom so....i scard she cry...so Wee Teng...if you'll cry then dun see arz...













Well today mii had dinner with my mom....My mom bought a beef steak and we shared the food together as i was not hungry....We tok about lots and lots of funny things...i could hardly remember any of it but anyway...it was fun....my mum cut the steak into small peices and then i atte then with my mom and my sis....mii,my mom and my sis tok about lot and lot of funny thinks...ok...i remember one...it was about my sis slow emotion....she told us that she once was washing the toilet floor as it's fill with shit that was left behine by my dog...welll any way....She on the water and felt that the a little painfullness and tought that the water was cold then she think again then she thought to herself"A....or is it hot?..." then she realise she was burn by the water hotness and quickly turn the water back to coolness....(ofcoz it's not funny saying it here...but the way my sis say was relly funny...you should seen her expression....
well dun wanna tok too much today...gotta go play Maple...mii lvl 20 le...yaya!!! gonna be lvl 21 le wahaha.then can do quest le...wahaha...then can get gold ore le wahaha....well...see ya tml...maybe...=P Good nite...Sweet dreams....Dun let kar kar(as in bed bug) Bite....

My darkness are turning into light

is it over?...

Iman came to MSN and ask why did i break with hx.....But i didn't ans coz i'm at Maple...Well...dose that mean it's over?....dose that means he gonna slince break with me?....Dose that mean we're never gonna be together again?....I know iman is angry at mii....Coz he had mand hx a frenz...and so....i'm being blame.....Haiz...what should i do now?...everyone would put the blame on me and say that i the one who say i wanna beak(i did think of breaking but...i didn't say any thing about it...or did i?...)....haiz....Maybe breaking with him might make mii even stress of being blame....haiz.....dunno larz...still confuess....We'll tok about it tml bahx....

Darkness is growing within my heart....

Is darkness growing within my heart?

I'm so stress

So tired....

I'm so tired...very tired....Wanna sleep a long long sleep.....can any one plz help mi....Every min i'm with him,i'm stress....i dunno why i really dun but i'm just sick and tired about every things....i feel like breaking but just dunno how to...i dun wann break his heart...i dun like the feeling of breaking his heart...i dun have the courage to beak with him...i'm really stress...Unless he break with mii or i'll stay in the moob of stress....and forever i'll be stress...And forever i'll be unhappy.....If only he'll break with mii...coz i dun wanna hurt him but it's just so hard.....i shouldn't have stead with him in the begaining...if only i knew this was gonna happened....Now then i know my love in the begaining was just smiply brother and sister love...nth much...stress.....hate this felling....it suck....

That dream again.....

Last nite i dream of that mermaid again....I drea, that i was back to the time when i'm on my bed at late at nite...i knew stright away thati was in my dream and i stood up and drew my sword for under my bed...(where dose the sword come from again any way?...)The i stood there ready for battle...then the mermaid came to my room from the window it brock my window down and came into my room....(where did my sister went?...)Then i cut off it's tail then it regrew back...The mermaid then came to mii wanted to tear off my face...i just took up my sword and cut it's head off then pock it through from the neck.....blood's gussing out from every where....Then my mum came in and ask why is it so noise in here then she saw the body and shouted out lound and then....i woke up....

so boring today....

haiz...dunno why today suddenly felt so lonely and boring....haiz...i call hx house phone at 11.01 untill 12.01 but still no one pick up the phone...haiz...so boring...miss him so much...yesterday my mum at home so i cannot call him then today nobody at home then i call him but no one ans....felt like being left out.....haiz...

And tok about the dream i had last nite...i dream of the scary mermaid that mii Ziying and Denice jie jie made at Setosa the Palawan beach....The mermaid had no face and is look for a face that suit her...she has been tearing off gurls face to paste it on her's and she had a tail with no scals on it but only fleash...and it's bleeding....every where it gose it will leave a trail of blood....she even had bone like fingure....her hair where mud-like coloure with some sea plants stuck on it it and some dead fish bone and part of gurls faces where stick on to her hair too....When she tore gurls face out,and think it's ugly, she'll paste it on it's tail....so on the tail there's faces and it look even scaryer....It's was chacing mii,my sis,Ziying,Denice,ah pea jie and lots of other gurls...we were runny for pour lives....the gurls who ran slow whould be caught and the face would be tone off ans paste it on the tail and she continew chasing us untill the faces fully cover her tail then she go to a toilet and try on the faces one by one and made the toilet fill with blood...then if she still dun get a face that she wants she would go and find more gurl to hunt for their faces.....then i dream that i was sleeping then suddenly the window of my room clash open and i just dought the falling window and took out my sword....(wait a min...think of it wheren dose the sword came from?....) Then she made some weird sound and went to my sis wanting to torn off her face and then i went to pull my sis away from her and slash away it's hand.....the mermaid turn it head at mii and her hand just pop back up(re-grew out of it's arm)....then i ran with my sis and call everone in the house to wake up and run....while they ran i stayed and instead lock the door of my room and started to have a one on one with the stupid mermaid....it flew towards mii and wanted to grab my face and i just slash off it's tail as a fish can't swim without it's tail i tot by slashing it off would help mii....then she fall on to the ground...then the tail started to regrew but i pock the sword from the top of the head and push it deep down and her blood came gushing out all over the room and soon my room became a pone of blood....then i saw the faces that it tore flew away back to the rightfull owner of theirs and all had be revied...but then i notice that my forhead had been tore off a little by the mermaid and my hand had been cut a little by it's nail while fighting and then i realishe my forhead started to grow something out of it and it started with a tail and then the body then it's hand then i realish the mermaid had planted the reborn seed in my forhead and then i just took sword and slad the tail off and then i pock the sword throught my head....OUCH~!!! it's so paintfull....then i woke up and started to do my daily stuff as if nth had happened...

Love in the air...

In the begaining i'm not sure if i did made thr right choice of steading with Hx...but in the end...i didn't regret...I knew that he will be the one who will bring joy and ture love in my life...but..i can't 100% sure that he'll love mii forever...as many guy told mii this before that they will love mii forever...but in the end...did they made it?....No...they was the one who brock my heart again....So if you're reading this hx... i want to tell you that....."Thanks for all the love you gave mii..and thanks for protecting mii soo much...i really really do love you...alot...And sorry that i can't belife in ture love...as we are still young..."

Scary holiday....[read the blue part..it's about ghost]

Today just came back from sentosa...Sentosa is the place where Worls War 2 takes place...as many ppl died,it became hunted....I went ther with my sister and har frenz,ZiYing,russle,Bishan,Yong Long, his gf and another guy and jie jie which i had forgoten their name....On 9/6/05 morning, mii and my sis went to the MRT station to meet up with them...but Yong Long and his Gf haven go yet....then later on we went to the near-by coffie shop and eat...mii and my sister didn't eat anything as we are not hungry....Then later on e went to Time-Zone and we played the game...it's something like a car but in an advance vesion....Mii and my sis didn't play the game at all...we just stod by and watch...

Then we went to the bus station and waited for the bus 855 and sat from the beganing till the end of the bus trip and then we went to the toilet and went to wait for the Setosa bus....When we reach there i had to bus the Sentosa ticket and went on in and again we had to take a very short trip on the bus again...When we reach, we had to walk quite a distance and reach a little hill and had to climb up the stairs of the hill it was very steep....

When we reach, Ziying had to kick the door and push it open as the door had spoil....Then we went in and went on upstair and in our room we saw Sandie crying saying she hate a boi...because he bully her and then my sis went to stop her from crying...Then later Sandie went to bath....Then Russle went to sleep on his bed.. So we went down stair to have our lunch...And man was the Macoroni saltish....I almost volmite....Then after that we went up back to our room and played some games then beshan and the jie jie fall a sleep and so mii,my sis,ZiYing and the kor kor went to ride bicycle...Luckyly i had learned to ride two weel bicycle or i'll be losing out...So we went on riding untill we had to go up a very very very steep hid...so we had to get down the bicycle and push it up hill...My sis good lor...the kor kor help my sis push the bicycle up the hill...We were then bitten by moskitoe...Man...never knew i would be bitten so much...sharks...

Then after that we ride back...Luckly near our Share-Lay got a 7-eleven shope the we went to buy some drinks and went on to go back to the bicycle rental shop and return the bicycle...Snice the shope and our Share-lay aren't that far so we walk back and Russle they all had woken up and kept calling us to go back....After that, that nite we had a BBQ and many ppl went there...after we ate we went to 7-eleven and brought water and 2mat and went to Palawan beach which is just infront of our Share-lay and sat on the mat...then we watch the stars sparkle under the nite sky and trying to spot the different between the saterlight and the stars...

After that my sis started to dig a hole and in the hole she made a love shape and it was soo nice...my sis pro sia...lol..After that every one started to play with the sand...Ziying went to aside and made a very big marmaid...it was so scary sia...mii and my sis felt uncomfertable and had a bad feeling about the marmaid...so we ask then to distroy it....then Ziying had to take The Bungolow Share-lay key so she had to go back before her mum gose home...so mii,my sis and Russle followed...as there were lesser ppl and it's already 12 in the mid-nite, mii and my sis felt something really really bad...my sis ever saw things...as my sis 3th eye are stronger than mine...When we went back we stayed in the room...But i still felt something is around us...something's watching us...But just couldn't see it...but when i look into the mirro which is facing the window,i saw a lig blueish white figure out side the window...it looks like a he and it's quite old...i tried to act as if i couldn't see it...but i just can't stop myself for shevering...Then i just walk toward the bed sat on it and try to look at other direction....

Then after that Russle had to go back to the beach and meet the other which is waiting for Yong Long and his Gf...So mii and my sis went to bath together Common it's not like we are lassbian rite?...it's just because my sis and i share the 3th eye...she had 50% of it and i had 50% of it...so it's not like i can see that thing every time....When she sees it i dun...when i sees it she dun...Well any way...After we bath we went downstair and watched the tv and after a while Russle they all came back with Yong Long and his GF...Then later mii bishan ZiYing the kor kor and jie jie went to the back door there the picnace table and they told us not to say any thing about the Ghost thingy infront of Yong Long GF as she is very afried of these things...and we all agreed...

Then we watched the tv untill 2am+ and went to our room and played some games till 4am+...Yong long played with us too...he was funny then...dunno wheather her GF got angry or jelouse anot....hope not...Then untill 4am++ we all fell asleep...then in the morning ZiYing woke up about 8am+ then mii and my sis woke up after her and then slowly about 10/11 + they all woke up...Yong Long and his GF leave first as they had something to do i think...Then about 12+ Bishne then wake up...Then in the after noon mii and my sis went to the the grassfloor infront of the Bungelow and pick love bean...we picked about 300+ of it...while the others stay in the air-cone room and make baloons dogs,bears,flower,mouse,hat and many m,ore pattens...then slowly we took turns to bath and Bishang Russle the kor kor and jie jie leave before mii,my sis an ZiYing as we had to wait for her mom...Then in the evening then her mom came but the car had no space for mii and m sis so we had to take bus home...so ZiYing Followed us...When we reach Yishun, we went to Northpoint and had our dinner...then i went home first and play come and call HX...the game is maple...as HX also got play so i play also as it's kinda fun too...lol...

Then at nite then i went to sleep larz ofcoz...but still miss HX alot...=P