i didn't....[crying]

I didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't ididn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn'ti didn't i didin't i didn't i didn't....crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying crying cryingcrying crying cying crying crying crying crying crying....cutting cutting cutting cutting cutting cutting cutting cutting cutting cutting.....cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut cut....cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cy cry cry cry cry cry cry cry c ry cry cry cry cry cry crycry cry cry cry cry cruy cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry cry...i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didn't i didin't i didn't.....cried all the way......Is this what you wan...coz i'm doing it now....

my mum is being so sensertive.....

My mum is being so sensertive...she dun trust mii now...everything also scold scold scold...it all started when she found the necklass that hx gave mii...haiz...if only i had kept it properly....then she would trust mii more and stop interupting every silgle thing i do....should i just take the pendan and walk up to tell her that i had this present from a guy who likes mii...but i didn't stead with him of have any bf and didn't be around guy as much as last time?....should i tell here these to gain her trust again?....why can't my parent trust mii and love mii like other's?...why?,,,,i have enough problem already...didn't she know that teenage life as a secondary pupil is very difficult?...Why can't then try to understand?...Even thought they are trying to protect mii but can't then just reapect my dicision?....i have tones and tones of problems already....Sometimes just by thinking about it make mii tried and wish that i could sleep for thousand and thousands of years untill the problem has gone and no one seems to remeber it.....haiz...how i wish that i could find someone that i could trust...and count on to tell them my problems...but now-a-days...frenz like this are very hard to find.....even thought i had found one...but that someone that i trust had change so much...and is no longer someone who i can really count on.....haiz....Hope i'll find a frenz that i can count on soon.....

dunno what happened to mii....

Today Ak still behave weirdly....still so cold and hush to mii....why did this happened?....what had happened to him...i really wanna know how he feels now....do he still love mii or do he not.....do he hate mii or not.....do he find mii anot....have i done alot of things to make him angry......i have lots and lot of question to ask him....but...how could i ask him...when should i ask him...where should i ask him....will he reply properly?.....i wondered.....

Then today i cried at class coz have too much problem to solve that i can't take it and cried....but nobody know why i cried as i didn't share my problem with my any of my frenz....then Andy started to sucpect that i cried becoz of Ak's attitude changing so much and being cold to mii...then Andy told Ak i cried for him but he dun belive...then later when teacher came in the class and i went back to my sit and tried to stop myself from crying,Andy asked my if i were crying for Ak and i didn't reply but i did blush...then Andy said" ah there! she is crying for you larz!" then ak looked at mii and i blush and looked away...then on,i caught that he sometime took a fast glance at him while toking to other ppl....then when crist say he forhead started bleading,i was so shock and quickly took musfirah tisue and gave it to crist then he gave Ak a piece of tisue and gave the hold pack back to mii....i was so shock and sad for his bleading that i started to felt like running up to him and hug him stright away...but ....i just dun dare...but if we were one to one...i think just maybe i would hug him stright.....i just can't stop thinking of him..i dunno why...even while playing game, i still would suddenly think of him and even wish he were playing the computer game with mii...but it seems kinda imposible.....haiz.....

how can i let him know.....

Haiz....hope you all would understand mii.....i dunno why am i like that....haiz....I suddenly like him agina...i dunno why...or how...haiz....i must be going crazy le....haiz....i get jelouse so easily when he's very close to orther gurls....i get sad when he's not around mii...and i felt very happy when he tok to mii or smile at mii....i wonder why am i behaving like this....i had brock his heart twice already....so i dun wanna break his heart again....but i could no longer keep my feeling as a secret any more...i wanted to tell him so badly that sometimes i just gone crazy about it just by thinking about it....how can i let him know my feeling without hurting him....can anyone help mii?...haiz......Hope i wouldn't be so crazy anymore.....

haiz...

My birthday had past...frenz like Hong Xian,KaiLing,Wee Teng,Poh Li and Musfirah gave mii presents and i really do like it...exspecily 1 of them that i tresure alot...it's from my dad...i really love it alot alot...Thank you everyone~!!!

Haiz... today dunno why...felt so sad that i dun even fell like playing games going out and even talk on phone...today i call BoyX....his voice sound as if he had never know mii....really hate mii and being irratated...i dunno why...he's always so kind,so nice and even so gental to mii...but...today's different....it's totaly out of order...he sound so cold,so angry and even hate is inside his voice....i really felt like crying the first time..but i held it back...then the secan time felt so painfull as if my heart has been cut into many bits of papers....Today when i heard his sounded like tat,i'm so sad that my voice grew softer and softer...it's so soft even my voice start to tremble....i dunno why or how it became like this....i just wanted him to be someone i can treasure in my heart forever...but now...it's seem so imposible...
Now my leg's bleeding coz i wanted to write this down sooo much because of the hurtfull feeling that i accentily cut my leg on the eged of the bed....not really deep even though but it's bleeding...any way...it's worth it...now my painfullness in my heart isn't that painfull already....

few days more.....

Just few days more to my birthday....Hope ppl will remeber my birthday....haiz....well...my frenz in primary school always forgoten my birthday one....dunno wheater my sec school frenz will remember....haiz.....hope they do....i had my skirt made shoter....and now no needa fold le...wahaha....just went to change the length on friday with musfirah and her fater....then i'm gonna give my kor kor/papa(hx) a neckless with his name on it one as a birthday preasant....going to power9 at Northpoint to buy it...hehe....he said he'll be giving preasant too...wonder what's is it....Hope i won't kana subbo when my birthday com...later my shirt whold so sticky and dirty then my mom had to wash untill siao liao...i dun wan my mom to suffer....>.<...and i also dun wan kana scolding on my birthday.....so plz dun sobbo mii arz....you all wanna bit mii them dun bit so hard....later i kana blueblack then die.....here blue black there blue black then later cannot sleep....lol......hope i will have a wonderfull birthday~....^-^

backie...

i have been single for a very long time already....It's not really a bad feeling thought....But my heart fell kinda emty...well...that dosen't matter...as long as i'm hapopy....^-^ Dunno why now-a-days my temper not very good...alwasy get angry so easily....my moob not that good....Now hx is my kor kor le....well aparenly...i LOVE all my kors and jie.....so there's nth wrong if i tell my kor or jie i love them...wahahaha...=P.....well yesterday just cried for my thirt kor...coz i never knew i had made him suffer for mii sooooo much....and all i do is break him heart and make him worry...mii really cried you know...he did too....haiz....well any way...i'm gonna give my thirth kor a neckless with him name on the front and I LUV U on the back.....wahaha....