fear that's in me....

Hours by hours,days past....and the fear in mii had still remained....the things that hurt still stayed...and the scar that had been made...stayed too....his words...pain ones...sad ones...happy ones...shy ones...will forever remain....his voice....high ones...low ones..firce ones...shy ones...will remain...his look and expressions.....happy ones...sad ones...shy ones...angry ones....will always be there...in my mind....no matter how scary....how pain...how suffering...it'll stay...
I wanna be...i wanna be the ones...beside him...making him happy...but...can i?...
i really mean it....the fellings....the feelings of all of these thing burnt inside mii...telling mii to go for it...telling mii to be strong...telling me to stay...and wait for him...it's just so strong that...i can't forgot of the feelings when i held him hand...feels his warm...hear his voice...and the thing that he says...the more i think of it...the more strengthless i am...being defeted by the feelings of pain....i really wanted him to know how i feels...how i think...and how i am...but is it too late?...haiz....hong xian...i really like you...alot....no...i mean i really luv you alot....if i could be with you...i would hold you tight and would never let you go again...never ever....