i wanna leave
Dae after dae...i thought to myself...i wanna leave this place...But...it juz seems so imposible...I can't live by my own...i can't earn money...i dun even have a shelter...if i leave...where can i go?...what can i eat?...who can i trust?...I wanna leave so badly...but juz by thinking of the concequences...i'm scared...It have been 3 dae since miie n my second sis qural...We had nt talk since then...she even cut a long hole in my bed...I have no one to talk to nor trust ani more...Miie n my second sis use to have no secrets...no bounderies between us...but as time grows...our distance grow...now...it's all gone...no one can ever understands miie ani more...Why?...coz as they grow...they can have more freedom...more new things...MP3 larz...Lap Top larz...Handphone larz...even a boi friend....while miie...everything is a NO...Everything is forbident...no going out...no going to firned house...cannot use com...cannot talk on phone...cannot have hp....cannot have mp3...canot have boi friend....must do hw...no talking back...every thing is a shit plan no...i hate it!!i wanna leave...i wanna leave...i wanna leave!!!
cried non- stop
Today issh a sad day bahx....
Gt a small qurall with moii second sister today...
Haiz....why can't they juz understand y i wanna use the com...
My big sis also lyk tt...
My second sister also lyk tt...
haiz...so darn sad sia...i now have no one to turn to at all...
no one can fully understands miie...nt even kim chuan...
haiz....to them... quralling is normal...but to miie it's nt...
becoz...i have a personality problem...every time i get too sad and fusterated,
i'll do smth very bad to them juz to make myself feel better...i dunno y...
i dunno y i am lyk tt...i juz can't control myself...
it's lyk...i wasn't miie...i juz wanna make tt person sad...
haiz...
Even mom scolded miie...y izzit lyk tt...
i wasn't totaly the one to be blame...i dun wanna get scolding....
i dun wanna....
i juz kept crying...crying...crying...haiz...
i wanna leave this place...
i dun wanna be here ani more....
i juz wanna leave this miserable place...
so tt atleast if i left, ppl leaving with miie will be happier...
without miie...there won't be a pesti little sister...
no one to kept asking and asking for using the com...
no one to take ur things without proper permision...
no one to fight over stuff with u ani more...
won't tt be better...
if i leave...i'll run...and hide...so tt they won't find miie...
untill i die...and go stinky...rotten...decompse...
and no one will ever find miie...nor remember miie...
no one will ever know where am i...nor care where am i...
they will live on...happily...without miie...
even if they do remember...they will still be happy...without miie...The Pest....
