i wanna leave

Dae after dae...i thought to myself...i wanna leave this place...
But...it juz seems so imposible...
I can't live by my own...i can't earn money...i dun even have a shelter...
if i leave...where can i go?...what can i eat?...who can i trust?...
I wanna leave so badly...but juz by thinking of the concequences...i'm scared...

It have been 3 dae since miie n my second sis qural...
We had nt talk since then...she even cut a long hole in my bed...
I have no one to talk to nor trust ani more...
Miie n my second sis use to have no secrets...no bounderies between us...
but as time grows...our distance grow...
now...it's all gone...no one can ever understands miie ani more...
Why?...coz as they grow...they can have more freedom...more new things...
MP3 larz...Lap Top larz...Handphone larz...even a boi friend....
while miie...everything is a NO...
Everything is forbident...no going out...no going to firned house...
cannot use com...cannot talk on phone...cannot have hp....
cannot have mp3...canot have boi friend....must do hw...no talking back...
every thing is a shit plan no...i hate it!!
i wanna leave...i wanna leave...i wanna leave!!!