Today i acturly didn't wan to go to school but i though about hx and force myself to go and ran to school...When i reach schol,my poket is really full and heavy that i ask hx to keep my yu ki oh cards for miie. He frounded and looked angrily at miie. I then took my cards back and said nvm. Just when i was turning back, he scolded miie a really painfull word... "lan dou"...
I was stun then. My heart felt as if it's been frozen and smashed in to peices. I really felt lyk crying then...but i controled. When i went back to class, i was so sad that i stayed at my place and listen to i-Pop song and slowly controling and atlast, i couldn't take it any more and started to cry quietly... Luckily Wee Teng nv notice... After i cried, i felt better and slowly turn back to my quiet feellings. I went to play U-no with hilia,Dong wen,izaird and Johnatan. Then i slowly started to peek at hx. Untill i feel alot alot more better then went to an empty sit beside hx and sat down. I sat there quietly looking kinda sad and then he asked "what's wrong?" Then i answer "nth..." smile and lie down on the table. I felt better then and started to smiled and laugth.

It haven ended here yet... After school i had to go do a 20mins librian so i told him. He came to the libiry looking for miie after i told him and i was really touch and happy...Then he had Wu Su so i went to the hall with him after he changed his cloths and sat down with him. Later on when his Wu Su member friends came, they made fun of miie and him. He then ask miie to go home first coz later the Wu Su members need to use the spot where i and him were sitting. I then agree and tell him " then wo hui jai le...bye bye..." He then say " sorry hor..." So i reply " ni bu yong sou sorry...ying kai sou sorry de ren shi wo.." i hen smile and walk home... On my way home i met my pri schoold's friends's mother and talk to her awhile and then went to a book shop and bought colour paper to fold paper crane... i walk untill a block and the rain got bigger so i sat down and took out the colour paper and started folding paper crane. When the rain got smaller, i walk quickly home and then sat down infront of the com and waited for hx to return home to call miie... i waited and waited... Things started to get borning but i still wanted to wait for his call and dare not leave the phone alone... Soon after, my ah ma called then my mum called then at last, he called... I was so happy!!! But soon after...we quraled... I told him then i went to newgrounds.com to watch the short movie there and then he told miie that's a pron site...i know it's a pron site but the short movie there were not even a bit porn...infact...some are vilonce...as long as u dun go see the pron there can liao marz... i had send one of the movie to some of the northland friends like Wee Teng and Wee Seng...dun belive ask them lorz... Then he also call miie not to tok to don wen too much as he watch alot of pron site and if i not careful,i might be one of the tester for him... I say orh and then say i didn't really tok to him one larz so dun worry...Then that's where the qural begains...

Every little words he said hurtz so much...i really couldn't help forcing myself not to cry.... Dunno how long can i take this any longer....
I really love him alot alot...really can't bare to let him go....but it really hurtz alot...
Haiz....what shall i do?....can anyone tell miie?...i dun wan to breal with him....but it hurtz....