Sad

Today is a realli stress day for miie...Many things happen...even when i'm not in school...
Kim...he....likes other girls...yuki,yuka and chew ping,my best friend...I realli can't believe it...my bestfriend chew ping and kim?...i'm so disappoited...so sad...i have never imagine that...words are ture...TIME can give u every thing yet TIME can also take away every thing...No matter how strong a will is...one will always lose to time... TIME never stops to wait...TIME never looks back...TIME can heal cuts in the out side but not the cuts in the inside...not always...it'll never fully heal everything...

I've heard about his liking from someone...can't believe it...i've havent been sleeping properly ever since i didn't go to school...i' havent been eatting properly too...i've always tried to smile...even at the stressest moment of my life...but this fake smile can never be there forever...i can no longer hides my emotions ani more...i've tried to smile when ever i can...but the thoughts always come and brings away my smile...i miss him so much that i've become like that....but yet...he...haiz...can't blame him...he dosen't know how am i even...i've become sick...i had a little fever last nite...yet i didn't tell ani one...i had beem having flue for 4 days now and even had sore throat...i didn't had enough sleep these days becoz of missing him...and now i got headach...everyday...not 5am i can't realli fall aslp...even if i do...i'll wake up every 1 hour or so...for no reson at all...
And now...i havent been eatting the wold day...except for a little puding that i force myself to eat juzs for my mother...i dun want her to be worry...but i ate only half...the other half i gave it to her to eat...i can't even smile a fake smile out...i've been trying to smile but the smile always disappers...my mood isn't fine at all...it's so worst than ever...i felt so meaningless,so lost,so confuse....i dunno wad to do...i...dunno...i dunno how to live ani more...

I need u...but are we meant to be together....so many disagreement...so many fading love...so many intruders...so hard to live on...if i set u free...will u ever come back?...
if i let u go...will u be even happier?...if i disapper will u be sad for miie...i wonder....i realli do wonders....alot...alot of question...without ani answers...i nid ur answers...i nid.....i realli realli do nid ur love...it's so hard...to get it now...is our love...at the limit end now?...if it is...will u be happi if i leave u?...i'm...realli lost...i...i....I WILL DIE WITHOUT U....u know....i'll be heartless if u're gone...my heart has always been with u...plz...dun go....dun leave miie alone here...i realli nid u badly....Kim Chuan...