Haiz...i'm not allowed to go to school today either...
But some how...i realli want to go to school..like before...
Hanging out with my firends...
Talking and laughting...having fun together u know...
I realli miss that times...
I juz...dunno why...i started to cry again yesterday...
When my mom ask me to choose either he change class or i change class...
i know it's small matter...but...i dunno why...i juz noded my head and so on then went to the kitchen an open the window,looked down...and started crying...a little....
Then started writing letters last nite...for wad reson i dunno...i wrote to 4 of my friends...
Using my realli writings...no longer writing it slowly trying to make it look nicer...
I've decided..i wanna be myself...i dun wanna wear a mask all my life...
But...i'm not sure which one is me already...so many attitudes....which would be miie?...
I'm so lost....haiz....
I juz hope i can meet someone out there that can bring out my real attitudes and make miie feel coftable with...i wonder if kim's is the one or not...but...now a days...i juz felt like we parted already...The feellings so weird....so cold....juz like singapore suddenly had winter...weird...

[X][u][e]-->siging off...sadly...lost...confuse...lonely...

A NEW CHAPETER BEGAIN...soon...