Back to depressions...

Yesterday wad another sad day. I n kim divorce in maple le. He gave the reson:"Scared later i log in ur sister saw then angry"....haiz... dunno is real reson or wad... Then he lend 12K cash from miie to buy the metro hair. Then later he aslo got say something that brings the fear in miie. He like totally changed...i dun mind we divorce...i dun mind he lend the 12K cash...but the stuff he said is...so...sacry...it's like...he's no longer the kim i know....haiz...I dunno...i have tot of telling him break but i juz can't say it out...i dun have the courage...and i dun bare to leave him...I always tell myself, "juz gib him another 2 weeks time, maybe he'll be back to normal soon enough". But it's juz getting worst n worst... I already dunno hw to face him...he's like a total stranger to miie... I dun get nwad he mean nor understand him ani more... Maybe becoz he have an equal numberm of stress he had to face....maybe becoz of the stressness he then become like tt de...or maybe...he dosn'y like miie ani more...or maybe i am juz a toy for him...or maybe he juz wanna use miie...or maybe...he loves miie nut dunno hw to show it ani more...haiz... Dunno larz...so confuse...so lost... I might be going crayz soon... Sometime...i juz felt like i see some things tt are nt there that is there...maybe i am going carzy... or maybe becoz i'm depress then i'm an easy target for the "something"...haiz...i'm carzy soon... Sometime, when i slp, i fely like someone's beside miie laughting and laughting...i dunno...must be going crazy soon...

Today i had chiness exam...i got alot i dunno...i must be failing my chinmess again...haiz... Then after school my mom n dad call miie and ask miie to go home...dun felt like going so juz yet... I felt like i'm enjoying go home more n more offen...everyday after school my frenz ask miie "where u going late" i'll always answer "Home". hahax...maybe i start liking home already... Then my dada come to the school Mac there to bring miie home then when i got home i talk to mommy untill i kinda like talking to her...accept that i still have the stress of talking to her becoz i'm not use to talking to her in such a friendly way yet...but i kinda enjoy talking to her... i gotta go study already...i think i'll end here...buaix~